I just read over last year’s “Happy New Year” post, and now I’m in a funk. Last year, I wrote about all the things I’m grateful for, but some of those things aren’t the case any more. For instance, the tentative peace with our neighbors only lasted until April. We’re in debt again, thanks in part to our vacation – which was totally worth it – and thanks to Kevin’s van going belly-up and gas prices going through the roof. We are more involved in our new church – I was involved in the Christmas program – but I still cried when I came home from singing at the ladies’ Christmas party at our former church. Which makes me wonder if that longing and hurt will ever be gone?
It doesn’t help that for the second year in a row, we were sick over Christmas. First, I did something to my left hip, resulting in back spasms on Wednesday, the 17th. Back spasms that gave me horrible flashbacks of back labor. Not fun. Thank God, I was well enough by Sunday to sing at church, but I am still on muscle relaxants and still sleeping sitting up on the couch, because laying down puts me in immense pain.
Then, after the Christmas program, the stomach flu hit. Kevin first, then Josiah, then Jonathan. I had a bit of an upset tummy for a couple days, and thought I had got off easy, but no such luck. Last night the grand-daddy of all stomach bugs felled me, the details of which I will spare you, but let’s just say it wasn’t pretty. I’m somewhat better today, but so, so tired of not feeling well.
Side note: To give you an idea of how the past few weeks have gone for us, the power supply on my laptop just went out in the middle of writing this post. Sigh. I’m on Nan’s computer, and Kevin’s on the phone with Michelle’s husband who used to work for HP to see if I could borrow one until I can get one shipped to me.
I did have a follow-up appointment with my doctor before I got too sick, and he’s referring me to a chiropractor for my back and a neurologist for the headaches and dizziness that don’t seem to want to quit. I’m hoping that 2009 will bring some answers.
But, I don’t want to spend my New Year’s post complaining about everything that has gone wrong. I need to switch my focus, or this post-holiday funk won’t be lifting anytime soon. So here are the things I’m grateful for:
~ I’m grateful that Kevin is still working, with no end in sight.
~ I’m grateful that my freelance writing has provided extra money when needed, and kept us from going into even more debt.
~ I’m grateful that the kids are all happy and healthy, colds and viruses aside.
~ I’m grateful that I am still able to homeschool the kids.
~ I’m grateful that Natalie and I are close, in spite of a few puberty-related bumps this year.
~ I’m grateful that Noah is growing into a young man with the heart of a helper.
~ I’m grateful that Jonathan has a desire to do right, and that he has a repentant heart when his actions don’t line up.
~ I’m grateful that Josiah has taken on some extra-curricular activities, like Tae Kwon Do and archery, when he used to want nothing more than to stay at home with the family.
~ I’m grateful that my sisters and their husbands and kids are all healthy.
~ I’m grateful that Dad didn’t hurt his hand worse than he did, and that it seems to be healing well.
~ I’m grateful that the doctors were able to figure out what was wrong with Mom, and that she’ll be able to have surgery to fix it.
~ I’m grateful for Michelle, a friend who is a kindred spirit, and for her boys – who are wonderful friends to my boys.
~ I’m grateful for online friends who have expanded my world.
~ I’m grateful that no matter how bleak and discouraging things may seem, God is in control, and I can rest in that.
Happy New Year!