Finally!

March 31, 2005 Categories: This and That | 1 Comment  

Well, as soon as Kevin gets home, we will be on our way. 10 years together! Amazing. I don’t have time now, but when I get back I will post on our marriage, its ups and downs, and how much God has blessed me by giving me Kevin.

Back on Monday!
Carrie

And the hits keep rolling…

March 30, 2005 Categories: All About Me | 1 Comment  

The past two weeks have been insanely crazy at our house! I know I’m being redundant, but it seems appropriate. I have been counting down the days until Kevin and I leave (tomorrow!) for our anniversary trip. And in the meantime, I think we’ve been under attack. I hesitate to use that term — I hate it when people see Satan behind every sniffle and car problem. But when several things in a row happen that are so out-of-the-ordinary, I begin to wonder. Here’s what’s happened since last Monday:

  • I’ve been sick with nausea, bloating, dizziness, shortness of breath for three weeks. Yesterday the shortness of breath accompanied chest pain and pressure, which is scary. Went to the doctor: diagnosed with pleurisy. Pleurisy! Isn’t that something out of a Victorian novel? He also drew blood to check blood sugar, thyroid, and cholesterol.
  • Last week, I lost a diamond out of my wedding ring.
  • Friday, the rear drum brakes went out on my husband’s van: $400 bill.
  • This morning, my 5yo Jonathan woke up with an intense toothache. Our regular dentist was out of the office — of course — so I took him to another who prescribed antibiotics and said to call our regular dentist. I got ahold of him and he will see him tomorrow a.m. to look at the tooth and most likely pull it. Then we will be dropping him off at a friend’s house to stay the weekend with a couple from church who also have a 5yo. Please pray he’ll do okay!

This is crazy! I’m almost afraid to think how many other things could go wrong before we actually leave tomorrow afternoon. In the middle of all of this, I have been struggling with fear. I don’t normally think of myself as a fearful person, but this sickness that doesn’t want to quit has my defenses down. I keep hearing all the “what-if’s”:

  • What if the doctor was wrong and it’s not pleurisy?
  • What if it’s cancer? I think this is running through my mind because of just losing my friend Beve last week.
  • What if it’s heart trouble?
  • What if I’ve waited too long to do something about my weight, and now there’s something seriously wrong?

I know where these questions come from. Ironically, my women’s Bible study was just studying the verses in 1 John yesterday. The ones that say “perfect love casts out all fear.” I’ve been quoting it to myself like crazy. It’s very strange for me to be dealing with fear — I’m normally very laid-back and my husband’s the anxious one. This time the roles have been reversed and it feels strange. Your prayers would be greatly appreciated.

So anyway, I will be gone for the rest of the week — back on Monday. (Knock on wood.) I will post then and hopefully be reporting what a wonderful time Kevin and I had celebrating 10 years together!

Until then,

Carrie

Easter weekend

March 26, 2005 Categories: This and That | 2 Comments  

It’s been a few days since I posted, I know. I’ve been in a caffeine-withdrawal fog since Wednesday. In an attempt to soothe my tummy, which was still acting strangely, I quit caffeine. Cold turkey. With no illegal drugs. I do NOT recommend this. On top of that, I decided to stop taking ibuprofen since that can be harmful to your stomach, and I’d been taking quite a bit for a sinus thing-y that’s been lingering on and on and on. Caffeine headache minus ibuprofen equals one very unhappy mommy. Tylenol helps some, but not a lot. And my mind is in a complete fog. Today is the first day I’ve felt capable of stringing words together to form coherent thoughts.

I’ve found some interesting articles on the web about caffeine withdrawal. They now classify it as a psychiatric disorder. (Does this mean I need Prozac?) Symptoms include: headache, fatigue, muscle aches, nausea and vomiting, flu-like symptoms, weakness…..and death. Not really, but you either feel like you’re dying or want to.

Of course, this is Easter week, which means that in spite of my coffee-craving-induced haze, I had stuff to do. Like clean my house and get Easter stuff ready. These things would not normally send me back to bed with my head under the covers. But this week accomplishing a few minor tasks felt like scaling Mt. Everest. This morning we’re taking the kids to a Resurrection celebration at church — complete with the Easter story, crafts, and more sugar than any child should actually consume. Tomorrow morning, we have two Easter services, both of which I must attend because I’m involved in a drama and singing. After church we will have our Easter-egg hunt for the kids. Then at 2 p.m. my family will arrive for Easter dinner. My wonderful parents’ are bringing a ham and Dad’s making pies, so all I need to do is whip up a potato salad. At 6 p.m. is the memorial service for Beve. At first I thought this was a strange choice of time, but now it seems fitting. Celebrating Beve’s life and entrance into heaven on the day Jesus beat death!

I’ve read that these caffeine withdrawals can last up to nine days. NINE DAYS! I’m praying that won’t prove true for me. I’m on day four, and I want to feel better. I wish you could see how many words — easy words — I’ve mis-spelled while writing this post — I can’t make my hands or mind work the way I want! If I can just get through this, I’ll never drink coffee or pepsi again. I swear.

Happy Easter!
Carrie

Bittersweet

March 23, 2005 Categories: Faith , Music | 1 Comment  

My dear sister in Christ, Beve, went home to be with Jesus this morning.

My prayers are with her husband, Dale, and her daughters. This song is for them:

Homesick

You’re in a better place,
I’ve heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I’ve rejoiced for you.
But the reason why I’m broken,
The reason why I cry,
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and see your face
If home’s where my heart is then I’m out of place
Lord, won’t you give me strength to make it through somehow
I’ve never been more homesick than now.

Help me, Lord, because I don’t understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I’ll ever know
But even if You showed me the hurt would be the same
Because I’m still here so far away from home
In Christ there are no goodbyes
In Christ there is no end
So I’ll hold on to Jesus with all that I have
To see you again.

Words and Music by Bart Millard
copyright 2004 Simpleville Music

Candle-dancing

March 22, 2005 Categories: Kid Stuff | 1 Comment  

How to make a memory:

  1. light every candle in the house
  2. turn out all the lights
  3. put on loud music
  4. dance around the living room with your children

Tonight’s soundtrack: Billy Joel’s Greatest Hits, Volumes 1 & 2 — only the up-tempo songs, of course; Mercy Me Undone — at this point only the kids are still dancing since Mommy’s exhausted.

No more complaining

Categories: This and That | 1 Comment  

In yesterday’s post, I whined and complained about how horrible I was feeling because of PMS and this stomach bug that doesn’t seem to ever go away. Today at my women’s Bible Study meeting, I learned that my friend Beve (the one on hospice care with abdominal cancer) slipped into a coma yesterday. Her husband seems sure she will be seeing Jesus very soon. My heart is heavy. And I am ashamed at my self-pity.

I keep thinking of Terri Shiavo. Her husband is doing anything he can to make sure that she dies. Beve’s husband, Dale, would do anything he could to make Beve’s cancer go away and keep her with him. This world is so messed up.

With a heavy heart,
Carrie

Oh, those raging hormones…

March 21, 2005 Categories: This and That | 2 Comments  

How I hate the way I feel during “that time of the month”! I feel exhausted, unmotivated, head-achy and back-achy, extremely irritable — in every way yucky. I know that as a Christian I am supposed to “rise above” and “not come under it” and all of that, but it’s difficult when all you want is to crawl in bed, throw the covers over your head, and stay there for about a week. Add this to the fact that I’m still fighting nausea from a stomach virus that lingers on and on and on — and you’ve got one cranky Mommy! I am so thankful that we’re taking this week off of homeschooling for Spring Break!

Our weekend wasn’t bad, considering all this. On Saturday we went up to the aquatic center in Canada again, this time taking our friends Heidi and Mark and their two little ones along. The kids had a blast, and so did we. That evening we watched The Incredibles for the first time. I am so glad that we bought it — the whole family loved it, including Kevin and I.

Sunday morning I woke up feeling wrung out — nauseated, exhausted. We didn’t go to church; I went back to bed after Kevin woke up and slept for a few hours. I spend the rest of the day doing nothing except finishing My Sister’s Keeper by Jodi Picoult. The book is about a family who has a child specifically as a bone marrow donor for their older daughter who has a severe form of leukemia. Very thought-provoking, especially as Ms. Picoult tells the story from several points of view: the donor daughter, the mother, the father, an attorney, the older brother. I have found this distracting in other books, but Ms. Picoult artfully portrays each character as real and unique. This book made me think about my own children and choices I would make if one or more of them were severely ill. (Warning: this book has some profanity and a few racy sections. Nothing graphic, but it is not written by a Christian author, unlike some of the other books I have recommended. Consider yourself warned.)

I will be starting Traveling Mercies: Some Thoughts on Faith by Anne Lamott this evening after rehearsal for Sunday’s Easter service. I’ve been very hesitant to read this book. I don’t know if I’m just extremely judgmental — I don’t think so — but I’ve had a hard time reconciling the idea of this woman loving Jesus with all her heart and yet believing abortion is okay. (She believes that personhood begins later than conception.) And yet, I’ve been yearning to be more real in my own faith and to be in a church where people are allowed to be authentic, but I don’t want to read a book because the person has faults? Hypocrisy — I hate it in others and forget how much it exists in me! I’ll let you know what I think of the book, not that it matters all that much!

On to dishes and dinner prep,
Carrie

(I added a list of what my 8-year-old daughter is reading to the sideline. She’s picked up her Mommy’s habit of having more than one book going at a time!)

Terri Schiavo

March 18, 2005 Categories: This and That | 1 Comment  

God be with Terri and her family.

Update: Brain-Damaged Woman Without Food for Fourth Day As Court Battles Rage — 12:00 pm Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Update: U.S. Judge Orders Hearing in Fla. Right-To-Die Case — 8:00 am Monday, March 21, 2005

Update: Senate Passes Legislation on Schiavo Case — 2:30 pm Sunday, March 20, 2005

Brain-Damaged Woman’s Feeding Tube Removed

Is that all?

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My six-year-old Noah has the first birthday of the year. It’s not until June, but that hasn’t stopped him from daily adding to his list of wants. His list is so varied — and mostly expensive — that I thought I’d post it as an insight into his personality.

  • chemistry set
  • guitar
  • BB gun — this after we watched A Christmas Story for the first time
  • paint-ball gun
  • dinosaur fossil toys — like puzzles, you assemble the bones
  • paint, canvas, and frames
  • wooden turtle shell — he asked my Dad to make this for him; he wants one he can actually wear
  • rubber turtle
  • bionicle
  • radio control truck
  • surfboard — which is really funny since we live in Northeastern Washington State — no beach less than 8 hours away! Too much Lilo and Stitch, I think!
  • spiderman game
  • soccer ball and goals
  • Hot Wheels Crash-zilla

Of course, there’s no way he’s getting all of this — or even most of it! But the boy definitely knows what he likes!

Have a great weekend!

Carrie

Don’t be silent!

March 17, 2005 Categories: Rants | 2 Comments  

Update: Congress Plans Order to Keep Schiavo Alive

Tomorrow, March 18th, Terri Schiavo’s feeding tube will be removed. Why this is happening is beyond my comprehension. This woman is not on life support; she is provided with food and water that she is unable to obtain for herself. The same is true of small children, and yet our country would be horrified at the idea of starving one to death. I encourage you to contact your state senator’s and representatives and make your thoughts known on this issue. I am also including a link to the state senators and representatives in Florida. They need to know that the whole country is watching what happens in their state.

List of Florida’s State Senators and Representatives with e-mail addresses and contact info.

US Senate Home Page — just choose your state from the list and you will be directed to a page with your senators. There will be links to contact forms for each senator.

US House of Representatives Home Page — enter your zip code and you will be directed to the page of your representative and the appropriate e-mail address.

Also, keep praying for Ms. Schiavo and her family. Pray that someone in power will take action to prevent this woman’s death.

Update: Fla. House OKs Bill to Keep Schiavo Alive

Update: Fla. Lawmakers Battle in Right-to-Die Case

Update: House Panel Seeks to Keep Schiavo Alive